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So some people don't seem to understand why this is so hard for me.  He was just so important to me.  He loved me like no one else did - I was perfect in his eyes.  We were so close.  I can't believe how fast this happened... I can't believe he's really not here any more.  I can't imagine a world that doesn't include my Grandpa.  It's kind of like losing a limb.  It's losing something that you've always had there, whether you used it or not, and maybe took a little for granted.

Anyway.  I'll be okay.  I was really dreading telling him that I'm planning on moving to Texas after I graduate - when he asked me what I was going to do, I told him I didn't know.  But now I don't have to tell him that I'm leaving him, and I'm grateful for that.  I'll be going home to St. Augustine tomorrow.  Home to sleep in my own bed and burn my candles and just have some away-from-all-the-people time.  I just got my Photoshop in the mail and I want to spend some quality time learning how to use it, just me and my trusty PC.  Things are going to be fine.  I feel like I haven't slept in a week, though, and all I've done is EAT.  I really think I've gained 10 pounds.  Everyone keeps bringing food over, and while we were in Pensacola for the funeral, we ate out at every meal, so I really overdid it.  I have felt totally full for about 3 days.  

My sister's birth mother has a toy poodle puppy she's trying to get rid of, and Maria offered it to me.  I'd really like to take her, but I have to clear it with my roommates first, especially since our lease is up at the end of August, so we're looking for a new place to live, and pet-friendly places are kind of hard to find.  We'll just have to see.  I really want her, but I want to respect my friends as well.  I know it's sort of a lot to ask.  I haven't seen her yet, but Maria says she's 6-months old, a pretty apricot color with honey-colored eyes, and about 3 pounds.  I think I want to name her Cricket if I can keep her ^.^  Anyone else have a good suggestion?